sorry to hear that--my daugher fell off a brick wall and drove a rock through her cheek and ill never forget the sounds of that day--and to change places with your kids im pretty sure you could do it because the way you sound im sure you could--im 29 and had heart bypass surgery last month and ive got a 11 inch scar on my side and a weak and a half after my son was sleeping on the couch and was going to roll off and i jumped out of the recliner and caught him ripping out the front staples and that was instinct--i didnt want him to hurt so i stopped his fall